An Empty Drawer

Spring is around the corner. It could be the warmer weather, or the extended hours of daylight, or the season of Lent that many of us celebrate, but something about this time of year moves us to want to clear the clutter from our lives. Spring is a season for purging, whether your clutter is physical or of a more spiritual nature. It’s just that time of year.

The other day, I tackled my bureau. Well, no, I didn’t physically take it down. But I faced the once-organized-but-totally-neglected mess in its drawers. I can’t remember the last time I put on a pair of pantyhose, yet I’d managed to stuff at least a dozen pairs into a shoebox-sized bin in the top drawer. Fashionable scarves that I haven’t worn once since this pandemic began were squished into a second bin. Socks and belts and random boxed jewelry filled in the spaces between the bins. And that was just the top drawer.

Everything came out of the drawers. I vacuumed them out and then neatly put back what I decided to keep. I could go into detail about how I made those choices, but that’s a subject for another day. And not the point I want to make today. Instead, what I found interesting, was that when I’d finished, more than half of the large, deep bottom drawer was empty. And my immediate impulse was to figure out what I should put in there. Surely I had other spaces that I could clean out and better organize, transferring some of their contents to this mostly empty drawer.

But I left it mostly empty, instead.

What was it about an empty drawer that made me uncomfortable or dissatisfied? Why do we always need to fill the empty spaces? I don’t think there’s an empty drawer or shelf anywhere in my house. Why is that? I saw an ad on tv the other day for a closet-design company. The poor people in the ad needed help because they had too much stuff and no where to put it, so the closet designers solved their problem by creating a wonderfully organized space for them. Now they had room for all their stuff. And more! How satisfying. But, I thought, what if they just got rid of some of their stuff instead? We’re so programmed to not consider that option. But, it is an option.

I wonder, if you and I looked around our homes today, would we find an empty drawer or shelf or cabinet or closet or tabletop? Or do we just spread our stuff into every available space, buying something because it will fill that one empty spot? How would you feel if you emptied one of these spaces and left it empty? Would it feel great, at first, but then feel like an itch that needed to be scratched? A void that needed to be filled? Why? I’m not trying to answer that question here. I just find the question very interesting.

You?

 

A Lengthening Of Days

Lent. Literally, the lengthening of sun-hours each day as we emerge from the darkness of winter. Light emerges from darkness, and in Lent we acknowledge the darkness of both individual struggles and societal difficulties.

The whole world is emerging, slowly, from the dark grip of a pandemic. We share in this global experience, yet we each have our individual challenges, ones that may have been thrust into focus by the shifting tide of what “normalcy” means. For some, life has become an overwhelming daily battle on the front lines of this disease. For others, it’s been a time of withdrawal, swallowing losses in rapid succession. For some, it’s become a season of reflection and assessment. A friend recently confessed to me that it’s given her time to reflect on her use of time. And I think that’s worth looking at.

How did you and I spend our time before this pandemic hit? Were our activities rewarding and fulfilling? Did we make time for things that we professed to be important? Or were we overwhelmed with busy-ness? Have you had time to ask yourself how things might be different as you emerge from the isolation of quarantining and social distancing? I know it’s a question I need to ask myself. If we take a moment to be quiet, away from distractions, and really face that question, are we brave enough to listen for the answers? If we are, the answers are there, I believe. God speaks in that quiet. And if you don’t believe in God, the quiet will answer anyway. God, or the deep truth that lives in the stillness at the center of who you are, will offer guidance. The challenge is being willing to listen. This is light emerging from darkness. This is what it means to live a Lenten journey.

Gratitude Spiral: Day 365

Today, I’m grateful for Thanksgiving Day and the completion of a year of traveling the Spiral path of Gratitude.

It began on Thanksgiving Day 2019 and has come, day by day, to Thanksgiving Day 2020. As I stated in the first Gratitude Spiral post, I wanted “to come around to gratitude over and over again, but be moved forward or outward, like a spiral.” I was aiming for a new place. A more grateful and appreciative place. And I think that’s where I’ve landed. What about you?

What are you grateful for today?

Gratitude Spiral: Day 358

Today, I’m grateful for hope.

It comes in a variety of sizes. There’s the hope that wakes up with me in the morning, looking forward to a new day. There’s the hope to attain some level of success as I map out my goals. And there’s the momentous hope for a better future for all, and the hope that I can do my part in it.

What are you grateful for today?

Gratitude Spiral: Day 331

Today, I’m grateful for spending this weekend at a virtual writers conference.

Back in the spring, I decided to take a big step (for me) and attend a writers conference. The Hollihock Writers Conference, actually. It was to take place at a hotel on the south shore of Massachusetts in May. Well, you know what else happened last spring, don’t you? So, the conference was pushed to August. But the in-person conference was eventually scrapped, and set up to be virtual instead, at the end of October. So, here we are, and I’m so excited! Thankful for all it has in store. 🙂

What are you grateful for today?

Gratitude Spiral: Day 98

Today, I’m grateful for the word “no.”

It’s a word I don’t use often enough, although I do use it more than I used to. In a world of too much busy-ness, information overload, and a whole lot of FOMO (fear of missing out), sometimes the best thing for our personal well-being, as well as for the greater good, is to step back and just say “no.” It can be a hard lesson to learn.

What are you grateful for today?

Gratitude Spiral: Day 96

Today, I’m grateful for the opportunity to set goals and dream dreams.

Every so often, it’s good to step back and reflect on where we are in our lives, in our careers, in reaching for our dreams, and in traveling on our spiritual paths. We assess and then we look forward, daring to plan and to set goals. Even to dream. Lent seems to be a good time for this level of reflection and, for that, I’m grateful.

What are you grateful for today?

Gratitude Spiral: Day 32

Today, I’m grateful for the work of Dr. Joe Dispenza.

His books explore the fascinating subject of epigenetics and the mind/body connection. They’ve brought me back to the practice of meditation and to the belief in possibility. Whether or not you buy into his theories, they make for some interesting reading!

What are you grateful for today?